"I stood there amazed. I found it all hard to believe, that I, Des Nilsen, had actually done all that"

Dennis Nilsen's quote reflects his shock in his own actions. He is amazed that he, Des Nilsen, had the ability to do all that he had actually done. It is most likely that he is referring to the abhorrent criminal offenses he devoted, which he discovered hard to think he can. His shock is likely due to the fact that he had the ability to commit such dreadful acts without feeling any remorse or guilt. This quote reflects his inner turmoil and confusion as he struggles to come to terms with his own actions. It is a reminder of the power of the human mind and how it can be manipulated to do unthinkable things. It is a suggestion of the value of understanding our own motivations and the effects of our actions.