"Well, I did know - but I just wanted the day to pass and the next day to come and then I wanted that one to pass. It was a horrible cycle. I felt so close to having to pack the game in"

Paul Gascoigne is expressing his feelings of hopelessness and despair. He was stuck in a cycle of wanting the day to pass and the next day to come, just to desire that one to pass as well. He seemed like he was on the verge of quiting, of loading the video game in. He was overwhelmed by the feeling of being stuck in a never-ending cycle of days that he simply wanted to pass. He was desperate for something to change, for something to break the cycle and provide him hope. His words reveal the sensation of being stuck in a rut, of feeling like there is no way out. He was close to quiting, however he was still hanging on, expecting something to change.