"All my life, as down an abyss without a bottom. I have been pouring van loads of information into that vacancy of oblivion I call my mind"
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The sentence works because it refuses consolation. “All my life” sets up the familiar arc of self-improvement, then immediately collapses it into futility. The abyss metaphor is old, but Smith tweaks it with the bureaucratic, almost comic specificity of “van loads,” a phrase that drags high-minded introspection into the physical world of deliveries and waste disposal. That tonal clash is where the cynicism lives: the writer as both diligent worker and failed machine.
Subtextually, it’s an indictment of the intellect-as-identity. If the mind is “vacancy,” then education becomes performance and accumulation becomes anxiety management. The “oblivion I call my mind” lands as self-mockery, but also as a quiet complaint against an information culture that measures worth by intake rather than understanding. Smith, writing in an era increasingly saturated with print and “general knowledge,” anticipates a recognizably contemporary dread: the fear that we’re not becoming wiser, just fuller - and still empty.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Smith, Logan P. (2026, January 16). All my life, as down an abyss without a bottom. I have been pouring van loads of information into that vacancy of oblivion I call my mind. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/all-my-life-as-down-an-abyss-without-a-bottom-i-114852/
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Smith, Logan P. "All my life, as down an abyss without a bottom. I have been pouring van loads of information into that vacancy of oblivion I call my mind." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/all-my-life-as-down-an-abyss-without-a-bottom-i-114852/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"All my life, as down an abyss without a bottom. I have been pouring van loads of information into that vacancy of oblivion I call my mind." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/all-my-life-as-down-an-abyss-without-a-bottom-i-114852/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.





