"As much as I feel sad, I think that not knowing is what really bothers me"
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The phrasing is deliberately plain, almost conversational, which is part of the trick. “As much as I feel sad” sounds like an opening to a confession, but it functions more like a recalibration: yes, I’m grieving, but the grief has an object; the uncertainty has none. Sadness can be aimed, narrated, even shared. Not knowing is a locked room: it forces the imagination to do the filling, and the imagination is rarely kind. That’s why the line lands with the particular ache Chbosky is known for - adolescent-adjacent, emotionally literate, alert to the way feelings tangle with cognition.
Subtextually, it’s about control. “What really bothers me” frames ignorance not as neutral absence but as active torment. The speaker isn’t just missing facts; they’re trapped in a loop of alternate explanations, rehearsed conversations, imagined outcomes. In Chbosky’s world, that loop is often the true antagonist: not the event itself, but the silence around it, the gap where certainty should be, and the loneliness of having to build meaning without enough evidence.
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| Topic | Sadness |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Chbosky, Stephen. (2026, January 15). As much as I feel sad, I think that not knowing is what really bothers me. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/as-much-as-i-feel-sad-i-think-that-not-knowing-is-172995/
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Chbosky, Stephen. "As much as I feel sad, I think that not knowing is what really bothers me." FixQuotes. January 15, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/as-much-as-i-feel-sad-i-think-that-not-knowing-is-172995/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"As much as I feel sad, I think that not knowing is what really bothers me." FixQuotes, 15 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/as-much-as-i-feel-sad-i-think-that-not-knowing-is-172995/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.







