"Beauty was deceptive. I would rather wear my pain, my ugliness. I was torn and stitched. I was a strip mine, and they would just have to look. I hoped I made them sick. I hoped they saw me in their dreams"
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The imagery does the heavy lifting. “Torn and stitched” makes the body a visible record, not a metaphorical scar but a seam that announces violence and repair in the same breath. Then Fitch escalates: “a strip mine.” That’s not just damage; it’s extraction. Someone took what they wanted, left a crater, and moved on. It frames harm as industrial and systemic, not merely personal misfortune.
The most chilling pivot is the wish for disgust. Wanting to “make them sick” isn’t nihilism; it’s a demand for consequence. If pain can’t be undone, it can at least contaminate the comfort of the bystander. The dream line is the coup: public politeness can look away in daylight, but dreams are where the sanitized narratives break down. Fitch’s intent is confrontational empathy-by-force, dragging the reader from spectator to witness. The subtext is moral: if you benefit from a world that rewards surface and ignores ruins, you don’t get to stay clean.
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| Topic | Sadness |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Fitch, Janet. (2026, January 11). Beauty was deceptive. I would rather wear my pain, my ugliness. I was torn and stitched. I was a strip mine, and they would just have to look. I hoped I made them sick. I hoped they saw me in their dreams. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/beauty-was-deceptive-i-would-rather-wear-my-pain-183848/
Chicago Style
Fitch, Janet. "Beauty was deceptive. I would rather wear my pain, my ugliness. I was torn and stitched. I was a strip mine, and they would just have to look. I hoped I made them sick. I hoped they saw me in their dreams." FixQuotes. January 11, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/beauty-was-deceptive-i-would-rather-wear-my-pain-183848/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"Beauty was deceptive. I would rather wear my pain, my ugliness. I was torn and stitched. I was a strip mine, and they would just have to look. I hoped I made them sick. I hoped they saw me in their dreams." FixQuotes, 11 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/beauty-was-deceptive-i-would-rather-wear-my-pain-183848/. Accessed 17 Feb. 2026.







