"But I always wound up being the damn John, when I wanted to be the Paul"
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The profanity does a lot of work. “Damn” and “wound up” carry exhaustion, not bravado: the sense that this isn’t a single misread but a repeating script. The “John” she’s pointing to isn’t necessarily Lennon the musician; it’s Lennon the cultural problem. The person whose messiness becomes the headline, whose ambition is recast as menace. That hits especially hard given Love’s public history: the way her work with Hole was routinely filtered through Kurt Cobain’s shadow, the way her anger was treated as evidence of pathology rather than perspective.
There’s also an uncomfortable gendered subtext. Men get to be “John” and still be canonized as complicated. Women who speak sharply get turned into the story’s villain, or worse, its punchline. Love’s intent is a refusal of that casting: she wanted the credit reserved for “Paul,” but she’s telling you how the machine kept rewarding her with infamy instead.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Love, Courtney. (2026, January 17). But I always wound up being the damn John, when I wanted to be the Paul. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/but-i-always-wound-up-being-the-damn-john-when-i-51452/
Chicago Style
Love, Courtney. "But I always wound up being the damn John, when I wanted to be the Paul." FixQuotes. January 17, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/but-i-always-wound-up-being-the-damn-john-when-i-51452/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"But I always wound up being the damn John, when I wanted to be the Paul." FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/but-i-always-wound-up-being-the-damn-john-when-i-51452/. Accessed 5 Feb. 2026.




