"But when I lose my temper, I find it difficult to forgive myself. I feel I've failed. I can be calm in a crisis, in the face of death or things that hurt badly. I don't get hysterical, which may be masochistic of me"
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The contrast she draws is the quote’s engine. She can be “calm in a crisis,” even “in the face of death,” but undone by the smaller, more socially complicated heat of temper. That inversion reads less like stoicism and more like training: crises clarify roles, stakes, and scripts. Everyday anger is murkier. It risks collateral damage, reveals entitlement, and breaks the persona of the competent adult woman who handles things. The self-forgiveness problem suggests the real fear isn’t anger itself; it’s what anger implies about need, vulnerability, or loss of control.
Then she drops the dart: “I don’t get hysterical, which may be masochistic of me.” It’s a sly nod to gendered history. Women have long been punished for “hysteria,” so not being hysterical can look like strength while functioning as self-denial. Calling it masochistic implies she’s internalized the demand to stay composed even when pain would reasonably spill over. The subtext is cultural: we celebrate resilience, then wonder why people treat their own emotional leakage as failure.
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| Topic | Anger |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Thompson, Emma. (2026, January 17). But when I lose my temper, I find it difficult to forgive myself. I feel I've failed. I can be calm in a crisis, in the face of death or things that hurt badly. I don't get hysterical, which may be masochistic of me. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/but-when-i-lose-my-temper-i-find-it-difficult-to-52629/
Chicago Style
Thompson, Emma. "But when I lose my temper, I find it difficult to forgive myself. I feel I've failed. I can be calm in a crisis, in the face of death or things that hurt badly. I don't get hysterical, which may be masochistic of me." FixQuotes. January 17, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/but-when-i-lose-my-temper-i-find-it-difficult-to-52629/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"But when I lose my temper, I find it difficult to forgive myself. I feel I've failed. I can be calm in a crisis, in the face of death or things that hurt badly. I don't get hysterical, which may be masochistic of me." FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/but-when-i-lose-my-temper-i-find-it-difficult-to-52629/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.


