"Christianity had two faces which bewildered me - two pictures which didn't fit"
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A clergyman admitting bewilderment is its own small heresy. Lionel Blue’s line lands because it refuses the PR version of faith: coherent, seamless, reassuring. Instead, he sketches Christianity as a diptych with mismatched panels, two faces that won’t reconcile into a single, flattering portrait. The bluntness of “didn’t fit” is the point. This isn’t abstract doubt; it’s the lived irritation of trying to inhabit a tradition that preaches unity while often presenting contradictions as mysteries you’re supposed to admire.
Blue, the first openly gay rabbi in Britain and a long-time BBC voice on religion, knew what it meant to love a faith that didn’t always love you back. Even if the quote names Christianity, the subtext is the broader problem of religious institutions: the gap between the radical tenderness of the founding story and the moral bureaucracy built on top of it. One face is mercy, incarnation, the scandal of grace. The other is gatekeeping: surveillance of bodies, insider language, the quiet coercion of “proper” belief.
“Bewildered me” keeps the temperature human rather than doctrinal. He isn’t prosecuting Christianity; he’s confessing to cognitive dissonance, the spiritual vertigo of hearing “good news” preached with a clenched jaw. The sentence also performs a subtle ethics: it grants that a tradition can contain incompatible truths without forcing a cheap synthesis. In a culture that rewards certainty, Blue makes space for a religious life that begins with honest mismatch.
Blue, the first openly gay rabbi in Britain and a long-time BBC voice on religion, knew what it meant to love a faith that didn’t always love you back. Even if the quote names Christianity, the subtext is the broader problem of religious institutions: the gap between the radical tenderness of the founding story and the moral bureaucracy built on top of it. One face is mercy, incarnation, the scandal of grace. The other is gatekeeping: surveillance of bodies, insider language, the quiet coercion of “proper” belief.
“Bewildered me” keeps the temperature human rather than doctrinal. He isn’t prosecuting Christianity; he’s confessing to cognitive dissonance, the spiritual vertigo of hearing “good news” preached with a clenched jaw. The sentence also performs a subtle ethics: it grants that a tradition can contain incompatible truths without forcing a cheap synthesis. In a culture that rewards certainty, Blue makes space for a religious life that begins with honest mismatch.
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