"Each of us, having received several hundred dollars, we passed the time gloriously, spending our money freely - never thinking that our lives were risked gaining it"
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There is a blunt, almost boyish candor in Carson’s “passed the time gloriously” that lands like a quiet indictment. The sentence moves fast: money arrives, pleasure follows, and the danger that produced it disappears from view. That speed is the point. Carson is recording a frontier economy where risk isn’t a dramatic climax; it’s the background weather. The real shock isn’t that they spent freely, it’s how easily the mind edits out the price of earning.
The “several hundred dollars” matters. In mid-19th-century terms, that’s not pocket change. It’s enough to convert hardship into a spree, to create a brief illusion of security and agency. Carson’s phrasing suggests a cycle: extreme hazard, sudden payout, instant dissipation. It’s less moralizing than observational, which makes it sharper. He doesn’t sermonize about irresponsibility; he shows how the body, still vibrating from danger, grabs for pleasure as if to prove the suffering bought something tangible.
The subtext is a culture trained to treat near-death as routine and cash as the only reliable language of reward. “Never thinking that our lives were risked gaining it” reads like an admission of psychological self-defense: to keep going, you can’t keep tallying the ways you almost didn’t. In that sense, the line doubles as a portrait of American expansion’s emotional machinery - the ability to romanticize the good time while mentally laundering the violence and vulnerability underneath.
The “several hundred dollars” matters. In mid-19th-century terms, that’s not pocket change. It’s enough to convert hardship into a spree, to create a brief illusion of security and agency. Carson’s phrasing suggests a cycle: extreme hazard, sudden payout, instant dissipation. It’s less moralizing than observational, which makes it sharper. He doesn’t sermonize about irresponsibility; he shows how the body, still vibrating from danger, grabs for pleasure as if to prove the suffering bought something tangible.
The subtext is a culture trained to treat near-death as routine and cash as the only reliable language of reward. “Never thinking that our lives were risked gaining it” reads like an admission of psychological self-defense: to keep going, you can’t keep tallying the ways you almost didn’t. In that sense, the line doubles as a portrait of American expansion’s emotional machinery - the ability to romanticize the good time while mentally laundering the violence and vulnerability underneath.
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