"Early on, if I was alone two three nights in a row, I'd start writing poems about suicide"
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The subtext is also about performance. Nicholson, even in interviews, has a practiced looseness; the line carries that same drawl. He doesn’t say he wanted to die. He says he wrote poems about it. Art becomes a containment strategy, a way to translate a volatile impulse into something controlled, sharable, and maybe even a little stylish. “Poems” is a telling choice: private, adolescent, earnest in a way that sits awkwardly beside the later Nicholson persona - the swagger, the grin, the public masculinity. He’s admitting that the famous confidence had a shadow origin story.
Context matters because Nicholson’s generation didn’t have a mental-health vocabulary ready-made for men, especially aspiring stars. So the line functions as a workaround: he’s naming depression and ideation without clinical terms, framing it as creative output. It’s a confession, but it’s also a warning about how easily “the artist’s darkness” can be romanticized when it’s really a symptom management plan that happened to rhyme.
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| Topic | Loneliness |
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