"For years I have been mourning and not for my dead, it is for this boy for whatever corner in my heart died when his childhood slid out of my arms"
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The phrasing does sly work. “For years I have been mourning” suggests a long, private ritual, the kind that can coexist with everyday function. “Not for my dead” rejects the culturally sanctioned script of grief, then replaces it with something harder to name. The boy becomes a mirror; the real casualty is the parent’s own emotional geography. “Whatever corner in my heart died” is deliberately imprecise, as if the speaker can’t bear to inventory the exact attachment that’s gone: tenderness, authority, usefulness, the illusion of protection.
Then comes the kinetic cruelty: “his childhood slid out of my arms.” Childhood doesn’t march away; it slips, like water or a dream you wake up losing. The image turns caregiving into failed containment, a reminder that love can’t freeze time. Coming from Gibson, a writer obsessed with the way futures arrive before we’re ready, the line feels like low-tech cyberpunk: the inevitable upgrade that costs you intimacy, and the parent left holding empty air where a simpler version of the world used to be.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Gibson, William. (2026, January 16). For years I have been mourning and not for my dead, it is for this boy for whatever corner in my heart died when his childhood slid out of my arms. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/for-years-i-have-been-mourning-and-not-for-my-95907/
Chicago Style
Gibson, William. "For years I have been mourning and not for my dead, it is for this boy for whatever corner in my heart died when his childhood slid out of my arms." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/for-years-i-have-been-mourning-and-not-for-my-95907/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"For years I have been mourning and not for my dead, it is for this boy for whatever corner in my heart died when his childhood slid out of my arms." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/for-years-i-have-been-mourning-and-not-for-my-95907/. Accessed 10 Feb. 2026.










