"For years I wanted to be older, and now I am"
About this Quote
Then the second clause lands like a deadpan verdict: “and now I am.” No fireworks, no triumph, not even disappointment spelled out. The restraint is the point. Atwood lets the reader supply the missing emotional aftermath, and what rushes in is complexity: the body’s negotiations, the loss ledger, the shifting social visibility, the accumulating memories you can’t put down. The sentence feels funny in the way a good epigram is funny: not a joke, but a trapdoor.
Context matters because Atwood’s work has always been alert to power and time as systems, not moods. “Older” isn’t just personal aging; it’s also what institutions demand you become before they take you seriously, and what they punish you for being once you’ve arrived. There’s a gendered charge, too: women are trained to treat youth as currency, then asked to age “gracefully” as if disappearance were a virtue.
The genius is its compressed irony: the wish comes true, but the premise behind the wish collapses. Being older isn’t a destination. It’s a condition.
Quote Details
| Topic | Aging |
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| Source | Evidence: For years I wanted to be older, and now I am. (Page number not verified from the original 1988 edition; exact location not confirmed). The quote is consistently attributed to Margaret Atwood's novel Cat's Eye in quote references, and secondary sources identify the work as Cat's Eye (1988). Penguin Random House confirms Cat's Eye as an Atwood novel, though the page number was not accessible in a primary scan. Because I could not inspect a digitized first edition page directly, the attribution to the book is strong but not fully verified to first-print pagination. The novel is commonly dated 1988 in quote sources, though some later publisher pages list later reprint dates. The likely first publication was 1988. Other candidates (1) Margaret Atwood (Shannon Hengen, Ashley Thomson, 2007) compilation95.0% ... Atwood Stories [ DVD ] . Kelowna , BC : Shaftesbury Films , 2003. DVD titles include : v.1 . " Polarities ... For... |
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Atwood, Margaret. (2026, March 13). For years I wanted to be older, and now I am. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/for-years-i-wanted-to-be-older-and-now-i-am-129915/
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Atwood, Margaret. "For years I wanted to be older, and now I am." FixQuotes. March 13, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/for-years-i-wanted-to-be-older-and-now-i-am-129915/.
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"For years I wanted to be older, and now I am." FixQuotes, 13 Mar. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/for-years-i-wanted-to-be-older-and-now-i-am-129915/. Accessed 17 Mar. 2026.






