"I am a smoker, I'm ashamed to say. I had given it up for many years, then picked it up again. It's a horrible habit. I struggle with myself all the time. And I love to smoke"
About this Quote
Then comes the narrative twist that makes it human: she quit “for many years,” then “picked it up again.” That reversal undercuts the tidy redemption arc we’re trained to expect from celebrity self-disclosure. Leo refuses the inspirational version of recovery and opts for the cyclic one, the one most people recognize but rarely celebrate.
The subtext is an actor’s honesty about performance itself. “It’s a horrible habit” signals compliance with the public script, the responsible statement you’re supposed to utter. But “I struggle with myself all the time” moves the focus from health to identity: addiction as an ongoing negotiation, not a solved problem. The final admission, “And I love to smoke,” lands like a small act of defiance. It insists that desire can coexist with self-reproach, that adults can hold contradictory truths without resolving them for the audience.
Context matters: coming from an actress whose work often trades in tough-minded realism, the quote reads less like a scandal and more like a character beat. Leo isn’t selling cigarettes; she’s refusing to launder appetite into virtue.
Quote Details
| Topic | Habits |
|---|---|
| Source | Unverified source: Interview Magazine: Melissa Leo’s Golden Moment (Melissa Leo, 2010)
Evidence: The quote appears in a Q&A with Daniel D’Addario, published December 17, 2010. In the section discussing onscreen smoking, Leo says: “I am a smoker, I’m ashamed to say… It’s a horrible habit. I struggle with myself all the time. And I love to smoke.” ([interviewmagazine.com](https://www.interview... Other candidates (1) Melissa Leo (Melissa Leo) compilation32.0% ct said leo the mistake i made was to expect all those big important fellas to call me up 12 melissa speak about her ... |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Leo, Melissa. (2026, January 13). I am a smoker, I'm ashamed to say. I had given it up for many years, then picked it up again. It's a horrible habit. I struggle with myself all the time. And I love to smoke. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-am-a-smoker-im-ashamed-to-say-i-had-given-it-up-155586/
Chicago Style
Leo, Melissa. "I am a smoker, I'm ashamed to say. I had given it up for many years, then picked it up again. It's a horrible habit. I struggle with myself all the time. And I love to smoke." FixQuotes. January 13, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-am-a-smoker-im-ashamed-to-say-i-had-given-it-up-155586/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I am a smoker, I'm ashamed to say. I had given it up for many years, then picked it up again. It's a horrible habit. I struggle with myself all the time. And I love to smoke." FixQuotes, 13 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-am-a-smoker-im-ashamed-to-say-i-had-given-it-up-155586/. Accessed 8 Feb. 2026.




