"I am tired, beloved, of chafing my heart against the want of you; of squeezing it into little ink drops, and posting it. And I scald alone, here, under the fire of the great moon"
About this Quote
The address "beloved" risks sentimentality, and that’s exactly why it works: it frames the speaker as someone trying to remain composed while admitting she can’t. The line breaks enact the stop-start rhythm of restraint giving way. "I scald alone" sharpens the earlier chafe into outright burn, and the "great moon" flips the usual romantic prop into an instrument of exposure. Moonlight doesn’t soothe; it interrogates. The "fire" of it is a sly contradiction that captures insomnia, erotic charge, and the punishing clarity of being awake with your wanting.
Context matters: Lowell, a central figure in early 20th-century American modernism and an openly queer poet by the codes of her era, wrote in a culture where certain desires had to travel obliquely. The poem’s subtext is that longing isn’t private; it’s staged against systems - distance, propriety, language itself - that keep love safely deliverable, never fully deliverable.
Quote Details
| Topic | Long-Distance Relationship |
|---|---|
| Source | Help us find the source |
| Cite | Cite this Quote |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Lowell, Amy. (2026, January 17). I am tired, beloved, of chafing my heart against the want of you; of squeezing it into little ink drops, and posting it. And I scald alone, here, under the fire of the great moon. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-am-tired-beloved-of-chafing-my-heart-against-62487/
Chicago Style
Lowell, Amy. "I am tired, beloved, of chafing my heart against the want of you; of squeezing it into little ink drops, and posting it. And I scald alone, here, under the fire of the great moon." FixQuotes. January 17, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-am-tired-beloved-of-chafing-my-heart-against-62487/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I am tired, beloved, of chafing my heart against the want of you; of squeezing it into little ink drops, and posting it. And I scald alone, here, under the fire of the great moon." FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-am-tired-beloved-of-chafing-my-heart-against-62487/. Accessed 3 Feb. 2026.







