"I believed or thought I was disoriented and the victim of a bizarre dream and I believe I paced in and out of the room and possibly into one of the other rooms. I may have re-examined her, finally believing that this was true"
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Disorientation is doing double duty here: it reads like an internal symptom report and, more pointedly, like a legal strategy in the form of prose. Sam Sheppard’s sentence staggers forward on hedges - “believed or thought,” “possibly,” “may have” - as if the mind can’t land on a single hard fact. That wobble isn’t just trauma on the page; it’s a careful dilution of agency. The more the narrative blurs, the less any specific action can be pinned down.
The phrasing also performs a kind of self-exculpating professionalism. Sheppard, a physician often described as “scientist” in popular retellings, reaches for the language of uncertainty you’d expect in a clinical setting: provisional, observational, allergic to absolutes. But in a murder case, that scientific caution becomes rhetorical armor. “I re-examined her” reframes the most incriminating moment - returning to the body - as duty rather than compulsion, procedure rather than panic.
Context does the rest. Sheppard’s account sits inside one of mid-century America’s most infamous trials, where media spectacle, class assumptions, and forensic ambiguity collided. The sentence tries to reclaim reality from that circus by insisting on dream logic: “bizarre dream,” pacing, rooms shifting. Subtext: if the scene felt unreal, then his behavior can be forgiven as human, not calculated. It’s a bid for sympathy that also quietly contests the prosecution’s central claim - that there was a coherent, intentional sequence at all.
The phrasing also performs a kind of self-exculpating professionalism. Sheppard, a physician often described as “scientist” in popular retellings, reaches for the language of uncertainty you’d expect in a clinical setting: provisional, observational, allergic to absolutes. But in a murder case, that scientific caution becomes rhetorical armor. “I re-examined her” reframes the most incriminating moment - returning to the body - as duty rather than compulsion, procedure rather than panic.
Context does the rest. Sheppard’s account sits inside one of mid-century America’s most infamous trials, where media spectacle, class assumptions, and forensic ambiguity collided. The sentence tries to reclaim reality from that circus by insisting on dream logic: “bizarre dream,” pacing, rooms shifting. Subtext: if the scene felt unreal, then his behavior can be forgiven as human, not calculated. It’s a bid for sympathy that also quietly contests the prosecution’s central claim - that there was a coherent, intentional sequence at all.
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