"I can imagine myself on my death-bed, spent utterly with lust to touch the next world, like a boy asking for his first kiss from a woman"
About this Quote
The subtext is Crowley’s lifelong campaign to rebrand spirituality as experience rather than obedience. In his occult cosmology, crossing thresholds is less about salvation than initiation, and initiation is always charged with risk and desire. By comparing the metaphysical to “a boy asking for his first kiss,” he weaponizes innocence: the image is tender, awkward, and a little desperate, which undercuts any grand priestly posture. Death becomes the last rite of passage, not a judgment seat.
There’s also provocation baked in. Crowley understood his public role as scandal engine, the “Great Beast” constructed as much by tabloids as by his own theatrics. Framing death in sexual terms tweaks both Christian decorum and the period’s anxieties about male desire and corruption. Yet it’s not merely shock for shock’s sake. The sentence argues that the unknown should be met with the same trembling impatience as erotic discovery: not resigned acceptance, but a reaching. It’s a self-myth that insists the will keeps wanting, even at the edge of silence.
Quote Details
| Topic | Mortality |
|---|---|
| Source | Line attributed to Aleister Crowley; appears on the Aleister Crowley Wikiquote page as "I can imagine myself on my death-bed, spent utterly with lust to touch the next world..." |
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Crowley, Aleister. (2026, January 15). I can imagine myself on my death-bed, spent utterly with lust to touch the next world, like a boy asking for his first kiss from a woman. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-can-imagine-myself-on-my-death-bed-spent-40150/
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Crowley, Aleister. "I can imagine myself on my death-bed, spent utterly with lust to touch the next world, like a boy asking for his first kiss from a woman." FixQuotes. January 15, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-can-imagine-myself-on-my-death-bed-spent-40150/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I can imagine myself on my death-bed, spent utterly with lust to touch the next world, like a boy asking for his first kiss from a woman." FixQuotes, 15 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-can-imagine-myself-on-my-death-bed-spent-40150/. Accessed 19 Feb. 2026.





