"I cannot help but think a curious event is this life of mine"
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A cool, almost accidental astonishment runs through Audubon’s line: not triumph, not complaint, but the wary wonder of someone watching his own biography the way he watched birds - attentive, slightly incredulous, aware that the scene could change in an instant. “I cannot help but think” frames the thought as involuntary, like an impulse that keeps returning on long walks. It’s a scientist’s phrasing, modest on the surface, yet it smuggles in a larger claim: his life is not simply lived, it’s observed.
“Curious event” is the hinge. Audubon doesn’t call his life a story (too tidy) or a destiny (too doctrinal). He calls it an event, singular, contingent, something that happened to him as much as something he shaped. That choice carries the subtext of a nineteenth-century naturalist’s worldview: the self is another specimen in motion, subject to chance, migration, predation, appetite. It also hints at the unease behind his achievements. Audubon’s career depended on restless travel, patronage, risk, and a kind of beautiful obsession - the same forces that produced The Birds of America and also made stability feel like a mirage.
The line lands differently when you remember the era’s harsh logistics: frontier conditions, unreliable money, the brutal labor of fieldwork, the quiet violence embedded in collecting and killing to draw. Audubon is half marveling, half taking inventory. There’s humility here, but not the pious kind - more the recognition that his life, like nature, refused to be domesticated into a neat narrative.
“Curious event” is the hinge. Audubon doesn’t call his life a story (too tidy) or a destiny (too doctrinal). He calls it an event, singular, contingent, something that happened to him as much as something he shaped. That choice carries the subtext of a nineteenth-century naturalist’s worldview: the self is another specimen in motion, subject to chance, migration, predation, appetite. It also hints at the unease behind his achievements. Audubon’s career depended on restless travel, patronage, risk, and a kind of beautiful obsession - the same forces that produced The Birds of America and also made stability feel like a mirage.
The line lands differently when you remember the era’s harsh logistics: frontier conditions, unreliable money, the brutal labor of fieldwork, the quiet violence embedded in collecting and killing to draw. Audubon is half marveling, half taking inventory. There’s humility here, but not the pious kind - more the recognition that his life, like nature, refused to be domesticated into a neat narrative.
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| Topic | Meaning of Life |
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