"I do feel really determined, and that I have to pull myself together, but I don't really think like, my market has changed and my company has changed, and I'm going to make it BIG in America!"
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Utada Hikaru’s line is a small act of refusal: refusal to perform the pop-star script where reinvention is always strategic, where every career dip is met with a boardroom-ready narrative about “the market shifting” and “the brand evolving” and the inevitable conquest of America. They name that script directly - market, company, BIG in America - then puncture it with a casual, almost embarrassed “like,” turning the language of executives and PR into something faintly ridiculous. The humor is quiet but pointed: the grand ambition is framed as a cliché they can’t quite bring themselves to inhabit.
The intent feels protective. “Pull myself together” acknowledges pressure - internal and external - without pretending it’s part of some master plan. Subtext: ambition exists, but so does fatigue, ambivalence, maybe even skepticism about what “making it” is supposed to mean when you’ve already achieved dominance elsewhere. For Japanese artists in particular, “America” has long been positioned as the ultimate validation, a finishing school for global legitimacy. Utada pushes back, not with a manifesto, but with the more believable move of sidestepping.
Culturally, it lands because it’s anti-mythmaking. Pop audiences are trained to expect narrative clarity: comeback, rebrand, crossover. Utada offers something messier and more human - determination without delusion, work without the sales pitch. It’s a reminder that authenticity isn’t a mood; it’s sometimes the decision to not monetize your own uncertainty.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Hikaru, Utada. (2026, January 16). I do feel really determined, and that I have to pull myself together, but I don't really think like, my market has changed and my company has changed, and I'm going to make it BIG in America! FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-do-feel-really-determined-and-that-i-have-to-104326/
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Hikaru, Utada. "I do feel really determined, and that I have to pull myself together, but I don't really think like, my market has changed and my company has changed, and I'm going to make it BIG in America!" FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-do-feel-really-determined-and-that-i-have-to-104326/.
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"I do feel really determined, and that I have to pull myself together, but I don't really think like, my market has changed and my company has changed, and I'm going to make it BIG in America!" FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-do-feel-really-determined-and-that-i-have-to-104326/. Accessed 10 Feb. 2026.









