"I feel like I've never had a home, you know? I feel related to the country, to this country, and yet I don't know exactly where I fit in... There's always this kind of nostalgia for a place, a place where you can reckon with yourself"
About this Quote
The subtext is Shepard’s signature American paradox: the nation sells freedom as self-invention, yet the self still wants a fixed point to push against. “Where I fit in” reads less like a social anxiety than a geographic one, which is exactly the Shepard move: identity becomes landscape, and landscape becomes an argument. His characters roam motels, deserts, and broken ranch houses not because they’re adventurous, but because they’re searching for a room that will finally hold their contradictions.
That “nostalgia for a place” is doing double duty. It’s longing, yes, but also suspicion: the place might not exist, or it existed only as a story we were told about ourselves. “Reckon with yourself” is frontier vocabulary turned inward - the old American reckoning (with land, with violence, with myth) reframed as an internal audit. Shepard isn’t asking for comfort. He’s describing the ache of wanting a home that can bear the truth.
Quote Details
| Topic | Nostalgia |
|---|---|
| Source | Evidence: I feel like I've never had a home. You know? I feel related to the country, to this country, and yet I don't know exactly where I fit in. And the same thing applies to the theater. I don't know exactly how well I fit into the scheme of things. Maybe that's good, you know, that I'm not in a niche. But there's always this kind of nostalgia for a place, a place where you can reckon with yourself. Now I've found that what's most valuable about that place is not the place itself but the other people; that through other people you can find a recognition of each other. I think that's where the real home is. (Page 97). The strongest traceable primary-source attribution I found points to Don Shewey's book-length study/biography Sam Shepard, which existed in a 1985 Dell first edition and is later cited by scholars as 'Shewey 97' when quoting this passage. Multiple secondary sources reproduce the longer wording and explicitly attribute it to 'Don Shewey's Sam Shepard,' and an academic article cites the quote as 'qtd. in Shewey 97,' indicating page 97. I could not directly inspect a scan of the 1985 book page itself in available web results, so page 97 is supported indirectly rather than by a page image. Because Shewey's book is by Don Shewey, this is not Sam Shepard's own authored book; it appears to preserve Shepard's words from an interview/conversation reproduced there. So this is likely the earliest currently verifiable publication, but I could not prove whether the words were first spoken elsewhere before appearing in print here. Other candidates (1) the Ultimate Book of Quotations (Joseph Demakis, 2012) compilation100.0% ... I feel like I've never had a home, you know? I feel related to the country, to this country, and yet I don't know... |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Shepard, Sam. (2026, March 12). I feel like I've never had a home, you know? I feel related to the country, to this country, and yet I don't know exactly where I fit in... There's always this kind of nostalgia for a place, a place where you can reckon with yourself. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-feel-like-ive-never-had-a-home-you-know-i-feel-137311/
Chicago Style
Shepard, Sam. "I feel like I've never had a home, you know? I feel related to the country, to this country, and yet I don't know exactly where I fit in... There's always this kind of nostalgia for a place, a place where you can reckon with yourself." FixQuotes. March 12, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-feel-like-ive-never-had-a-home-you-know-i-feel-137311/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I feel like I've never had a home, you know? I feel related to the country, to this country, and yet I don't know exactly where I fit in... There's always this kind of nostalgia for a place, a place where you can reckon with yourself." FixQuotes, 12 Mar. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-feel-like-ive-never-had-a-home-you-know-i-feel-137311/. Accessed 13 Mar. 2026.



