"I feel upsettingly de-natured. If Penelope Cruz were one of my nurses, I wouldn't even notice"
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“Upsettingly de-natured” is doing heavy work. He doesn’t say depressed, exhausted, or dulled. He says de-natured: unmade. The phrase carries a faintly theological chill, as if sickness has revoked his membership in the species. Hitchens, the professional contrarian and public hedonist, frames desire as proof of life and individuality. When even fantasy can’t breach the hospital’s fog, that’s not serenity; that’s dispossession.
The subtext is a final, characteristic refusal of sentimentality. Many people narrate illness with uplift or bravery; Hitchens goes for the bleak punchline. It’s also a backhanded confession: his identity - sharpened by appetite, argument, and attention - is threatened by a medical regime that turns you into “the patient.” He’s not mourning sex so much as the loss of the self who wants things. The wit is a defense mechanism, but also a diagnostic tool: if the punchline doesn’t move you, something is truly wrong.
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| Topic | Witty One-Liners |
|---|---|
| Source | Verified source: Vanity Fair: Topic of Cancer (Christopher Hitchens, 2010)
Evidence: I feel upsettingly de-natured. If Penélope Cruz were one of my nurses, I wouldn’t even notice. (Online article; exact page not available in web edition). The quote appears in Christopher Hitchens’s own Vanity Fair article "Topic of Cancer," published in 2010. In the accessible web text, it appears near the end of the article, immediately before: "In the war against Thanatos, if we must term it a war, the immediate loss of Eros is a huge initial sacrifice." This appears to be the earliest primary-source publication of the line that I could verify. The piece was later reprinted/collected in Hitchens’s posthumous book Mortality (2012), but the first verified publication I found is the Vanity Fair article. The web edition uses the accented spelling "Penélope." ([vanityfair.com](https://www.vanityfair.com/culture/2010/09/hitchens-201009)) Other candidates (1) The Wit and Wisdom of Christopher Hitchens (David Graham, 2014) compilation93.8% ... I feel upsettingly de - natured . If Penelope Cruz were one of my nurses , I wouldn't even notice . " " I have mo... |
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MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I feel upsettingly de-natured. If Penelope Cruz were one of my nurses, I wouldn't even notice." FixQuotes, 9 Mar. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-feel-upsettingly-de-natured-if-penelope-cruz-154723/. Accessed 15 Mar. 2026.





