"I felt that I ostracized myself by my behavior, by the past, by living with all the regrets of my mistakes, that I sort of wore a hair shirt and beat myself up most of the day thinking and regretting why did I make such a mistake? Why have I made so many mistakes?"
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The religious language matters. “Hair shirt” isn’t just a metaphor for feeling bad; it’s a specific symbol of penitence, an old-school technology for converting guilt into bodily discomfort. Pair it with “beat myself up most of the day,” and you get a modern, almost therapeutic idiom welded to medieval self-mortification. She’s confessing, but also diagnosing: regret becomes an identity, a habit, a kind of residence.
The repetition of “mistake” does double duty. On one level it’s sincere; on another, it signals how public scandal collapses a messy life into a single category: errors. The questions (“Why did I…? Why have I…?”) don’t seek answers so much as replay the loop. In context, this reads as a bid for complexity in a culture that prefers simple villains and redemption arcs: not “I’m fine now,” but “I’m stuck in the afterlife of my own headlines.”
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| Topic | Learning from Mistakes |
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Ferguson, Sarah. (2026, January 16). I felt that I ostracized myself by my behavior, by the past, by living with all the regrets of my mistakes, that I sort of wore a hair shirt and beat myself up most of the day thinking and regretting why did I make such a mistake? Why have I made so many mistakes? FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-felt-that-i-ostracized-myself-by-my-behavior-by-112866/
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Ferguson, Sarah. "I felt that I ostracized myself by my behavior, by the past, by living with all the regrets of my mistakes, that I sort of wore a hair shirt and beat myself up most of the day thinking and regretting why did I make such a mistake? Why have I made so many mistakes?" FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-felt-that-i-ostracized-myself-by-my-behavior-by-112866/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I felt that I ostracized myself by my behavior, by the past, by living with all the regrets of my mistakes, that I sort of wore a hair shirt and beat myself up most of the day thinking and regretting why did I make such a mistake? Why have I made so many mistakes?" FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-felt-that-i-ostracized-myself-by-my-behavior-by-112866/. Accessed 13 Feb. 2026.






