"I had a constant fear, a constant little doubt in my mind: 'OK, I'm getting ready to do my standing back full on beam and I might re-tear my ACL.'"
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The specificity does the heavy lifting. "Standing back full on beam" isnt generic danger; its a named, technical skill performed on a four-inch platform where hesitation is visible and punishment is immediate. By putting the move in the sentence, Johnson reminds you that confidence in this sport isnt an attitude, its a motor pattern. An ACL tear isnt just pain or time off; it's a betrayal of muscle memory. The subtext is that returning isnt simply rehabbing tissue, it's re-negotiating trust with your own knee while youre expected to perform with the same crispness as before.
Theres also a cultural rebuttal embedded here. Gymnastics has long rewarded the appearance of calm - the smile, the stuck landing, the "she was born to fly" storyline. Johnson admits the opposite: fear is present, even constant, and the job is to execute anyway. The intent feels less like confession than permission-giving, a quiet pushback against a sports culture that treats vulnerability as a flaw rather than an honest description of risk.
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| Topic | Fear |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Johnson, Shawn. (2026, January 16). I had a constant fear, a constant little doubt in my mind: 'OK, I'm getting ready to do my standing back full on beam and I might re-tear my ACL.'. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-a-constant-fear-a-constant-little-doubt-in-123052/
Chicago Style
Johnson, Shawn. "I had a constant fear, a constant little doubt in my mind: 'OK, I'm getting ready to do my standing back full on beam and I might re-tear my ACL.'." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-a-constant-fear-a-constant-little-doubt-in-123052/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I had a constant fear, a constant little doubt in my mind: 'OK, I'm getting ready to do my standing back full on beam and I might re-tear my ACL.'." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-a-constant-fear-a-constant-little-doubt-in-123052/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.









