"I had my bully, and it was excruciating. Not only the bully, but the intimidation I felt"
About this Quote
The phrasing is plain, almost stubbornly unpoetic, which is exactly why it works. “I had my bully” carries a grim, possessive inevitability, as if everyone is issued one, like a bad locker assignment. That casual ownership sharpens the critique: this isn’t an aberration, it’s a social arrangement. “Excruciating” then spikes the sentence with bodily pain, refusing the cultural downgrade of bullying into “kids being kids.”
Cormier’s broader work - especially The Chocolate War - treats adolescent life as a political system in miniature, where power operates through humiliation, rumor, and enforced silence. This quote fits that worldview: intimidation is not merely fear, but a method of governance. It trains compliance, isolates targets, recruits bystanders into complicity. The subtext is adult, even if the scene is youthful: institutions often protect the smooth functioning of the group over the person being harmed.
He’s also quietly arguing for moral seriousness about psychological damage. The bully is a person; intimidation is the lasting architecture the person leaves behind. That’s the excruciating part Cormier won’t let you look away from.
Quote Details
| Topic | Fear |
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| Source | Help us find the source |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Cormier, Robert. (2026, January 16). I had my bully, and it was excruciating. Not only the bully, but the intimidation I felt. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-my-bully-and-it-was-excruciating-not-only-106111/
Chicago Style
Cormier, Robert. "I had my bully, and it was excruciating. Not only the bully, but the intimidation I felt." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-my-bully-and-it-was-excruciating-not-only-106111/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I had my bully, and it was excruciating. Not only the bully, but the intimidation I felt." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-my-bully-and-it-was-excruciating-not-only-106111/. Accessed 17 Feb. 2026.





