"I had said to some pastor that I was having thoughts, and the church turned on me. They went to my mom and said, So sorry about your son"
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It lands like a quiet betrayal: a young person reaching for language, and an institution answering with a condolence note. Jai Rodriguez frames the moment with devastating economy - “I was having thoughts” is deliberately vague, the kind of careful phrasing someone uses when they’re scared of what the full sentence might cost them. The church’s response turns that uncertainty into a verdict. They don’t ask what he means. They translate “thoughts” into “trouble,” then into “tragedy,” and finally into a family problem to be managed.
The line “They went to my mom” is the real power move. It’s not just judgment; it’s escalation. The church bypasses the person in pain and recruits the parent as both witness and warden, reasserting its authority through shame. That “So sorry about your son” is a masterpiece of passive aggression dressed as compassion: it mourns him while he’s still alive, treating self-discovery or mental distress as a kind of death - spiritual, moral, social. Sympathy becomes a weapon, the nicest way to tell someone they’re contaminated.
As an actor and public figure associated with visibility and queer culture, Rodriguez’s memory reads as a snapshot of a broader era when certain churches policed interior life as fiercely as behavior. The intent isn’t to dunk on faith; it’s to expose the mechanism: how quickly “care” becomes control, how a community can choose reputation over listening, and how a kid learns that honesty doesn’t always get met with help - sometimes it gets met with a funeral.
The line “They went to my mom” is the real power move. It’s not just judgment; it’s escalation. The church bypasses the person in pain and recruits the parent as both witness and warden, reasserting its authority through shame. That “So sorry about your son” is a masterpiece of passive aggression dressed as compassion: it mourns him while he’s still alive, treating self-discovery or mental distress as a kind of death - spiritual, moral, social. Sympathy becomes a weapon, the nicest way to tell someone they’re contaminated.
As an actor and public figure associated with visibility and queer culture, Rodriguez’s memory reads as a snapshot of a broader era when certain churches policed interior life as fiercely as behavior. The intent isn’t to dunk on faith; it’s to expose the mechanism: how quickly “care” becomes control, how a community can choose reputation over listening, and how a kid learns that honesty doesn’t always get met with help - sometimes it gets met with a funeral.
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| Topic | Mental Health |
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| Source | Help us find the source |
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