"I had to get rid of any idea of hell or any idea of the afterlife. That's what held me, kept me down. So now I just have nothing but contempt for the institution of the church"
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The pivot, “So now,” is where the emotional temperature spikes. He doesn’t drift into vague skepticism; he declares “contempt,” and not for God but for “the institution of the church.” That distinction is strategic. McCourt is attacking the machinery: the social authority that translates private doubt into public shame, that turns suffering into a moral test and obedience into a virtue. “Institution” is the tell - he’s talking about power, not just belief.
Context sharpens the edge. McCourt, shaped by mid-century Irish Catholicism and the poverty he chronicled in Angela’s Ashes, writes from a world where the church was not a weekend activity but a governing presence in classrooms, homes, and bodies. In that environment, talk of hell functions like a currency of discipline. His “getting rid” of it is less a philosophical conversion than a survival tactic: remove the threat, reclaim the self. The contempt reads as earned, almost protective - an ex-believer’s refusal to let an old fear keep collecting rent in his mind.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
McCourt, Frank. (2026, January 15). I had to get rid of any idea of hell or any idea of the afterlife. That's what held me, kept me down. So now I just have nothing but contempt for the institution of the church. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-to-get-rid-of-any-idea-of-hell-or-any-idea-146061/
Chicago Style
McCourt, Frank. "I had to get rid of any idea of hell or any idea of the afterlife. That's what held me, kept me down. So now I just have nothing but contempt for the institution of the church." FixQuotes. January 15, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-to-get-rid-of-any-idea-of-hell-or-any-idea-146061/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I had to get rid of any idea of hell or any idea of the afterlife. That's what held me, kept me down. So now I just have nothing but contempt for the institution of the church." FixQuotes, 15 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-had-to-get-rid-of-any-idea-of-hell-or-any-idea-146061/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.






