"I have photographs taken of me at the time I was addicted, and thought I looked good. I see them today and realize my eyes were dead"
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The pivot from “photographs taken” to “I see them today” is doing quiet work. Photos are supposed to be objective receipts, yet Alley frames them as mirrors that change depending on who’s looking. Then she isolates one feature - “my eyes” - the oldest shorthand in Hollywood for authenticity and presence. “Dead eyes” is industry language as much as it’s human language: the camera catches what performance can’t fully counterfeit. She’s diagnosing not just addiction’s toll on the body, but its theft of inner animation, the sense that a person is home behind their own face.
There’s also a pointed critique of the beauty economy baked in. If you can “look good” while falling apart, the culture’s metrics are untrustworthy. Alley isn’t asking for pity; she’s puncturing the idea that appearance equals wellness, and she’s doing it with the simplest, most damning contrast: past confidence, present clarity, one frozen image that suddenly tells the truth.
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| Topic | Learning from Mistakes |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Alley, Kirstie. (2026, January 16). I have photographs taken of me at the time I was addicted, and thought I looked good. I see them today and realize my eyes were dead. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-photographs-taken-of-me-at-the-time-i-was-118932/
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Alley, Kirstie. "I have photographs taken of me at the time I was addicted, and thought I looked good. I see them today and realize my eyes were dead." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-photographs-taken-of-me-at-the-time-i-was-118932/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I have photographs taken of me at the time I was addicted, and thought I looked good. I see them today and realize my eyes were dead." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-photographs-taken-of-me-at-the-time-i-was-118932/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.




