"I have to detach myself completely from aspirations. I hardly ever listen to music anymore because it arouses all of this yearning in me"
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The second sentence sharpens the knife. Music is treated less as pleasure than as a trigger, a portal to "yearning" so intense it becomes unmanageable. Hillenbrand isn't romanticizing melancholy; she's describing an avoidant discipline, the way someone with chronic limitation learns to curate their interior life. The subtext is that longing is not free. If your body or circumstances lock you into narrow margins, yearning doesn't just hurt abstractly - it makes you viscerally aware of everything you can't chase.
Context matters: Hillenbrand has written with extraordinary empathy about endurance and ambition (Seabiscuit, Unbroken), but she has also lived for decades with severe chronic illness that restricts daily life. That tension hums beneath this remark. It's the author of triumph narratives admitting that the raw material of those narratives - desire, momentum, possibility - can be personally destabilizing.
The rhetoric is plain, almost clinical, and that's what makes it land. No metaphor, no inspirational pivot. Just an unsettling recognition: sometimes the healthiest relationship to hope is controlled distance, and art powerful enough to enlarge the soul can also widen the gap between what you feel and what you can do.
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| Topic | Letting Go |
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Hillenbrand, Laura. (n.d.). I have to detach myself completely from aspirations. I hardly ever listen to music anymore because it arouses all of this yearning in me. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-to-detach-myself-completely-from-87966/
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Hillenbrand, Laura. "I have to detach myself completely from aspirations. I hardly ever listen to music anymore because it arouses all of this yearning in me." FixQuotes. Accessed February 2, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-to-detach-myself-completely-from-87966/.
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"I have to detach myself completely from aspirations. I hardly ever listen to music anymore because it arouses all of this yearning in me." FixQuotes, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-to-detach-myself-completely-from-87966/. Accessed 2 Feb. 2026.






