"I have two books that were published quite some time ago. I start to read about three sentences. I have to close it. I am so self-conscious. Who did I think I was?"
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Duke’s context matters. She wasn’t just any actress; she was a child star turned emblem of precocious talent, later candid about mental health and the pressures of fame. Books, especially in the era when celebrity narratives were sold as moral arc and marketable trauma, can feel like monuments erected too early. Reading your younger self is like meeting someone who has your face but none of your current caution. The "close it" is a reflexive self-editing move: a person who has spent a life being watched still trying to manage the gaze, even when it’s her own.
The subtext is both vulnerability and critique. Duke isn’t rejecting her story; she’s wincing at the certainty required to put it on paper. Fame teaches you to perform confidence. Aging teaches you how provisional all that confidence was. This is the quiet comedy of retrospection: the older self can’t believe the younger self ever dared to speak so loudly.
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| Topic | Confidence |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Duke, Patty. (2026, January 16). I have two books that were published quite some time ago. I start to read about three sentences. I have to close it. I am so self-conscious. Who did I think I was? FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-two-books-that-were-published-quite-some-100531/
Chicago Style
Duke, Patty. "I have two books that were published quite some time ago. I start to read about three sentences. I have to close it. I am so self-conscious. Who did I think I was?" FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-two-books-that-were-published-quite-some-100531/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I have two books that were published quite some time ago. I start to read about three sentences. I have to close it. I am so self-conscious. Who did I think I was?" FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-have-two-books-that-were-published-quite-some-100531/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.

