"I justified it in so many ways. I had a very, very long and difficult struggle with my sexuality"
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There is an almost clinical honesty in the way de Rossi frames denial as labor: “I justified it in so many ways.” The verb does a lot of work. It doesn’t suggest confusion so much as strategy - a mind drafting airtight arguments to keep a truth at bay. That small admission captures how stigma operates internally: not as one big lie, but as a thousand tiny legal briefs you write against yourself.
Then she pivots to “a very, very long and difficult struggle,” repeating “very” like someone still trying to make the listener feel the duration in their bones. It’s not poetic; it’s plainspoken, which is precisely why it lands. Celebrities are trained to polish pain into a neat anecdote. De Rossi instead offers the unglamorous version: time, friction, endurance. “Struggle” also sidesteps tidy narratives of self-discovery. It implies opposition - from culture, from industry, from family scripts, from the punishing image economy that tells women their bodies are public property and their desires are PR liabilities.
Context matters here: an actress coming up in an era when being openly gay could be read as career-limiting, especially for women expected to play romantic leads for a presumed straight audience. The subtext is about survival in a system that rewards concealment while selling authenticity. By naming the “justifications,” de Rossi isn’t asking for sympathy; she’s exposing the mechanism. The line quietly indicts a world that makes self-acceptance feel like a battle plan rather than a birthright.
Then she pivots to “a very, very long and difficult struggle,” repeating “very” like someone still trying to make the listener feel the duration in their bones. It’s not poetic; it’s plainspoken, which is precisely why it lands. Celebrities are trained to polish pain into a neat anecdote. De Rossi instead offers the unglamorous version: time, friction, endurance. “Struggle” also sidesteps tidy narratives of self-discovery. It implies opposition - from culture, from industry, from family scripts, from the punishing image economy that tells women their bodies are public property and their desires are PR liabilities.
Context matters here: an actress coming up in an era when being openly gay could be read as career-limiting, especially for women expected to play romantic leads for a presumed straight audience. The subtext is about survival in a system that rewards concealment while selling authenticity. By naming the “justifications,” de Rossi isn’t asking for sympathy; she’s exposing the mechanism. The line quietly indicts a world that makes self-acceptance feel like a battle plan rather than a birthright.
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