"I myself spent nine years in an insane asylum and I never had the obsession of suicide, but I know that each conversation with a psychiatrist, every morning at the time of his visit, made me want to hang myself, realizing that I would not be able to cut his throat"
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The cruelty lands in the last clause: he wants to hang himself because he cannot “cut his throat.” Suicide appears less as self-hatred than as displaced violence, the only remaining agency in a system designed to strip him of it. Artaud’s genius is to make the reader feel the trap: even the fantasy of resistance is policed, so the body becomes the only available weapon and the only available victim. It’s not a clinical report; it’s a sabotage of clinical language, hijacking “obsession” and “visit” to show how institutional calm can be experienced as assault.
Context matters. Artaud’s life ran through institutionalization, electroshock, and the early-20th-century confidence that the mind could be disciplined into social usefulness. As a dramatist who wanted theater to hit like an exorcism, he recoils at psychiatry’s conversational mode: talk as containment, interpretation as domination. The quote’s intent isn’t to romanticize suffering; it’s to indict a culture that mistakes compliance for health and calls that mistake care.
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| Topic | Mental Health |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Artaud, Antonin. (2026, January 16). I myself spent nine years in an insane asylum and I never had the obsession of suicide, but I know that each conversation with a psychiatrist, every morning at the time of his visit, made me want to hang myself, realizing that I would not be able to cut his throat. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-myself-spent-nine-years-in-an-insane-asylum-and-138363/
Chicago Style
Artaud, Antonin. "I myself spent nine years in an insane asylum and I never had the obsession of suicide, but I know that each conversation with a psychiatrist, every morning at the time of his visit, made me want to hang myself, realizing that I would not be able to cut his throat." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-myself-spent-nine-years-in-an-insane-asylum-and-138363/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I myself spent nine years in an insane asylum and I never had the obsession of suicide, but I know that each conversation with a psychiatrist, every morning at the time of his visit, made me want to hang myself, realizing that I would not be able to cut his throat." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-myself-spent-nine-years-in-an-insane-asylum-and-138363/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.









