"I never felt I was quite the ticket academically. I always felt I had to put in an enormous amount of effort not to be disappointing. So I worked really hard, but at the time it suited me, because I didn't do very much else"
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The subtext sharpens in “an enormous amount of effort not to be disappointing.” She’s not describing ambition so much as avoidance: work becomes a shield against the shame of letting people down. That’s a particularly British, particularly educated-world anxiety, where “disappointing” can mean failing your own standards, your family’s, or the invisible standards of institutions that reward ease.
Then she pivots: “So I worked really hard, but at the time it suited me.” This isn’t a redemption arc; it’s a pragmatic confession about how insecurity can be functional. Effort becomes identity, structure, even refuge. “Because I didn’t do very much else” quietly complicates the virtue of hard work. It suggests a narrowness - maybe loneliness, maybe tunnel vision - and it’s where the line resonates culturally: the modern work ethic as coping mechanism. Mortimer’s intent feels less like self-pity and more like demystification, a reminder that discipline is often born from fear, and that fear can, for a while, look exactly like drive.
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Mortimer, Emily. (2026, January 16). I never felt I was quite the ticket academically. I always felt I had to put in an enormous amount of effort not to be disappointing. So I worked really hard, but at the time it suited me, because I didn't do very much else. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-never-felt-i-was-quite-the-ticket-academically-124788/
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Mortimer, Emily. "I never felt I was quite the ticket academically. I always felt I had to put in an enormous amount of effort not to be disappointing. So I worked really hard, but at the time it suited me, because I didn't do very much else." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-never-felt-i-was-quite-the-ticket-academically-124788/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I never felt I was quite the ticket academically. I always felt I had to put in an enormous amount of effort not to be disappointing. So I worked really hard, but at the time it suited me, because I didn't do very much else." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-never-felt-i-was-quite-the-ticket-academically-124788/. Accessed 21 Feb. 2026.



