"I prefer insomnia to anaesthesia"
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Choosing insomnia over anaesthesia is Tabucchi’s kind of defiance: a preference for raw, conscious unease rather than the merciful blankness of being spared feeling. On the surface it’s a perverse trade - sleeplessness is misery, after all - but the line works because it treats suffering as an ethical posture, even a literary necessity. Insomnia keeps you in the room with yourself. Anaesthesia removes you from the plot.
Tabucchi, a writer obsessed with doubles, missing persons, and political afterimages (Portugal under Salazar, Italy’s own fog of compromise), often stages consciousness as both burden and duty. The subtext here is: don’t numb me, don’t simplify me, don’t edit out the discomfort that makes perception honest. Insomnia becomes a form of vigilance. It’s the writer’s state, but also the citizen’s: the refusal to be sedated by comfort, propaganda, or the soft narcotics of forgetting.
There’s also a sly metacommentary on art-making. Anaesthesia is what bad narratives promise: painless closure, clean arcs, anesthetized characters who “move on.” Tabucchi’s world resists that. His sentences linger where most people would rather be put under. Insomnia is the condition of memory that won’t cooperate, guilt that keeps tapping the shoulder, desire that doesn’t resolve into moral lessons.
The line’s sting is its intimacy: it doesn’t grandstand about bravery; it admits a private preference. Not heroism - temperament. For Tabucchi, staying awake is a way of staying human, even when humanity is inconvenient.
Tabucchi, a writer obsessed with doubles, missing persons, and political afterimages (Portugal under Salazar, Italy’s own fog of compromise), often stages consciousness as both burden and duty. The subtext here is: don’t numb me, don’t simplify me, don’t edit out the discomfort that makes perception honest. Insomnia becomes a form of vigilance. It’s the writer’s state, but also the citizen’s: the refusal to be sedated by comfort, propaganda, or the soft narcotics of forgetting.
There’s also a sly metacommentary on art-making. Anaesthesia is what bad narratives promise: painless closure, clean arcs, anesthetized characters who “move on.” Tabucchi’s world resists that. His sentences linger where most people would rather be put under. Insomnia is the condition of memory that won’t cooperate, guilt that keeps tapping the shoulder, desire that doesn’t resolve into moral lessons.
The line’s sting is its intimacy: it doesn’t grandstand about bravery; it admits a private preference. Not heroism - temperament. For Tabucchi, staying awake is a way of staying human, even when humanity is inconvenient.
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