"I think I did have fantasies about being an actor. In fact, I know I did"
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The line lands like a tiny self-cross-examination: “I think” walks in wearing modesty, only to get yanked back by the firmer, almost sheepish confession, “In fact, I know I did.” Shaffer isn’t just admitting a youthful daydream; he’s dramatizing the way artists launder desire through hesitation. The first clause performs caution, the second exposes it as a rhetorical pose. For a playwright, that’s not incidental. It’s craft. He’s showing how a person tells the truth when they’re half-embarrassed by it, how certainty arrives after the speaker tries to soften it.
The subtext is about proximity to the spotlight. Shaffer made his name writing roles other people inhabited - men who crave recognition, control, transcendence. From Amadeus to Equus, his work is packed with characters who want to be seen so badly it turns feral. This quote suggests that urge wasn’t only observational; it was biographical. He wanted the embodied authority of performance, then chose the more invisible power of authorship: creating the conditions under which others shine, suffer, and confess.
Context matters, too. In mid-century British theater, acting could look like glamour while playwriting looked like seriousness, a hierarchy of legitimacy. Shaffer’s sentence quietly punctures that divide. The fantasy of acting is framed as both ordinary and undeniable - a private ambition he can finally own without apology. It’s a neat, two-step reveal: the artist as someone who writes because he once wanted to step onstage, and learned to stage himself in language instead.
The subtext is about proximity to the spotlight. Shaffer made his name writing roles other people inhabited - men who crave recognition, control, transcendence. From Amadeus to Equus, his work is packed with characters who want to be seen so badly it turns feral. This quote suggests that urge wasn’t only observational; it was biographical. He wanted the embodied authority of performance, then chose the more invisible power of authorship: creating the conditions under which others shine, suffer, and confess.
Context matters, too. In mid-century British theater, acting could look like glamour while playwriting looked like seriousness, a hierarchy of legitimacy. Shaffer’s sentence quietly punctures that divide. The fantasy of acting is framed as both ordinary and undeniable - a private ambition he can finally own without apology. It’s a neat, two-step reveal: the artist as someone who writes because he once wanted to step onstage, and learned to stage himself in language instead.
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