"I think I'm in the same mood as ever, but in some ways more mature. I guess you could say that, at 65, when you've seen the world shape up as I have, there are only two things you can do: laugh or kill yourself"
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That binary is doing a lot of work. It’s not a melodramatic cry for help so much as a profession-of-faith in the only viable coping mechanism left to someone who has spent a career anatomizing betrayal, state hypocrisy, and the machinery that turns ideals into paperwork. “Laugh” reads as resistance: a refusal to grant the world’s absurdities the dignity of despair. “Kill yourself” isn’t an actual recommendation; it’s the pressure term that makes the first option feel earned rather than breezy. He’s telling you the jokes come from staring directly at the ugliness, not from avoiding it.
The subtext is classic le Carre: the tragedy isn’t that the world is corrupt, it’s that it’s predictably corrupt, and you still have to live in it. By calling this stance “more mature,” he punctures the self-help fantasy of personal growth as moral victory. His version of growth is simply learning which illusions are nonnegotiable to lose - and which, if you lose them all, might cost you the will to stay.
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Carre, John Le. (2026, January 15). I think I'm in the same mood as ever, but in some ways more mature. I guess you could say that, at 65, when you've seen the world shape up as I have, there are only two things you can do: laugh or kill yourself. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-think-im-in-the-same-mood-as-ever-but-in-some-54076/
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Carre, John Le. "I think I'm in the same mood as ever, but in some ways more mature. I guess you could say that, at 65, when you've seen the world shape up as I have, there are only two things you can do: laugh or kill yourself." FixQuotes. January 15, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-think-im-in-the-same-mood-as-ever-but-in-some-54076/.
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"I think I'm in the same mood as ever, but in some ways more mature. I guess you could say that, at 65, when you've seen the world shape up as I have, there are only two things you can do: laugh or kill yourself." FixQuotes, 15 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-think-im-in-the-same-mood-as-ever-but-in-some-54076/. Accessed 7 Feb. 2026.






