"I waged war against my feelings"
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The subtext is darker than simple “discipline.” Audubon’s work depended on killing birds in order to draw them with anatomical precision. The tenderness you’re supposed to feel for living creatures becomes, in his telling, an obstacle to truth-making. “War” isn’t accidental rhetoric; it gives moral cover. If feelings are the adversary, then violence becomes duty, not choice. The phrase also performs masculinity and nineteenth-century conquest logic: mastery over nature begins with mastery over sentiment.
Context matters because Audubon sits in the uneasy hinge between Enlightenment classification and Romantic awe. He sells wonder to his audience while privately admitting the cost of producing it. The sentence is a pressure valve: a confession that he had feelings, paired with a flex that he could suppress them. It’s self-mythmaking in miniature, preserving his image as the heroic observer even as it quietly admits what the paintings can’t: the beauty was extracted, not merely witnessed.
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| Topic | Self-Discipline |
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"I waged war against my feelings." FixQuotes, 15 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-waged-war-against-my-feelings-165228/. Accessed 9 Feb. 2026.







