"I want to swim in both directions at once. Desire success, court failure"
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Coming from an actor, the line reads like a private manifesto against the careerist version of artistry. Acting is built on audition rooms, rejection, and public misfires; the job requires you to believe in your own magnetism while staying porous enough to be reshaped. Rickman’s intent seems less self-pity than self-engineering: if you only desire success, you start selecting safe roles, safe interpretations, safe emotions. Courting failure keeps you experimentally alive. It’s a way to protect the work from the marketplace’s preference for repeatable “types” and to protect yourself from the deadening comfort of being reliably good.
The subtext is also psychological: wanting both outcomes is a hedge against shame. If failure is something you pursued, it can’t entirely define you. Rickman turns that defensive move into an ethic: risk as a chosen discipline, not an accident. In a culture that treats success as proof of virtue, his line insists the opposite: failure is often the price of seriousness.
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Rickman, Alan. (2026, January 15). I want to swim in both directions at once. Desire success, court failure. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-want-to-swim-in-both-directions-at-once-desire-75360/
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Rickman, Alan. "I want to swim in both directions at once. Desire success, court failure." FixQuotes. January 15, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-want-to-swim-in-both-directions-at-once-desire-75360/.
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"I want to swim in both directions at once. Desire success, court failure." FixQuotes, 15 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-want-to-swim-in-both-directions-at-once-desire-75360/. Accessed 6 Feb. 2026.





