"I was fighting a small fight of my own which wasn't leading anywhere-but like a man with a bent spoon trying to dig through a cement wall I knew that a small fight was better than quitting: it kept the heart alive"
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The intent is survival, stripped of inspiration. A “small fight” is deliberately scaled down, like he’s warning you off grand narratives and big moral victories. Bukowski’s speakers rarely get to be noble; they get to be stubborn. The spoon is a comic prop, but it’s also a statement about tools: you don’t wait for the right equipment, the right time, or the right version of yourself. You use what’s in your hand because stopping is a kind of death.
Subtextually, this is a manifesto for the marginal person, the one locked out of clean exits and dignified transformations. “Quitting” isn’t just abandoning a project; it’s surrendering to the deadening drift Bukowski associates with day jobs, booze, loneliness, and the slow erosion of will. The fight becomes a crude form of self-respect: not winning, not even expecting to win, but refusing to go inert.
Context helps: Bukowski wrote from a life of low-wage labor, rejection, and late-blooming recognition. The line carries his signature anti-heroics: keep scraping, not because the wall will crack, but because the act keeps you human.
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| Topic | Perseverance |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Bukowski, Charles. (2026, February 10). I was fighting a small fight of my own which wasn't leading anywhere-but like a man with a bent spoon trying to dig through a cement wall I knew that a small fight was better than quitting: it kept the heart alive. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-was-fighting-a-small-fight-of-my-own-which-185252/
Chicago Style
Bukowski, Charles. "I was fighting a small fight of my own which wasn't leading anywhere-but like a man with a bent spoon trying to dig through a cement wall I knew that a small fight was better than quitting: it kept the heart alive." FixQuotes. February 10, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-was-fighting-a-small-fight-of-my-own-which-185252/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I was fighting a small fight of my own which wasn't leading anywhere-but like a man with a bent spoon trying to dig through a cement wall I knew that a small fight was better than quitting: it kept the heart alive." FixQuotes, 10 Feb. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-was-fighting-a-small-fight-of-my-own-which-185252/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.



