"I was not typical. Whatever typical or normal is, I was somehow separated and different"
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Alienation is often written as melodrama; Hawkes gives it the chill of a clinical diagnosis. "I was not typical" lands with the bluntness of a chart note, then immediately undercuts the authority of the very category it invokes: "Whatever typical or normal is". The move is sly. He admits the social power of "normal" while refusing to grant it coherence. In Hawkes's world, norms are less moral truths than administrative fictions - terms that people use to sort, police, and exile one another.
The second sentence pivots from definition to sensation. "Somehow separated and different" is intentionally vague, a foggy adverb ("somehow") doing heavy psychological work. It suggests the speaker can't fully name the cause, only the outcome: a lived experience of distance. That uncertainty is the point. Outsiderness isn't always rooted in a clear trauma or identity marker; sometimes it's a persistent mismatch between the self and the scripts on offer, like a body that won't fit into the furniture of the room.
Context matters: Hawkes's fiction is famously dislocating, populated by narrators who feel estranged not just from society but from stable reality itself. Read as a writer's credo, the line also telegraphs an aesthetic stance. To be "separated" is painful, but it's also productive: a claim that art begins at the edge of the agreed-upon. Hawkes isn't begging for acceptance; he's questioning the legitimacy of the gate.
The second sentence pivots from definition to sensation. "Somehow separated and different" is intentionally vague, a foggy adverb ("somehow") doing heavy psychological work. It suggests the speaker can't fully name the cause, only the outcome: a lived experience of distance. That uncertainty is the point. Outsiderness isn't always rooted in a clear trauma or identity marker; sometimes it's a persistent mismatch between the self and the scripts on offer, like a body that won't fit into the furniture of the room.
Context matters: Hawkes's fiction is famously dislocating, populated by narrators who feel estranged not just from society but from stable reality itself. Read as a writer's credo, the line also telegraphs an aesthetic stance. To be "separated" is painful, but it's also productive: a claim that art begins at the edge of the agreed-upon. Hawkes isn't begging for acceptance; he's questioning the legitimacy of the gate.
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