"I was trying to find out what it was that everybody else understood without giving up my stubborn and hard-won lack of understanding"
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The intent isn’t anti-intellectual; it’s anti-credential. “What everybody else understood” reads like the ambient consensus of a room - the shared nods, the jargon, the quick interpretations that function as membership cards. Antin wants access to that collective code, but not at the price of surrendering the productive friction of not-knowing. The subtext is a critique of cultural literacy as performance: understanding can be less a private illumination than a public compliance.
Context matters: Antin is closely associated with talk-poems and improvisational, lecture-like performances that blur argument, anecdote, and philosophy. His work often stages thinking in real time, with digressions that refuse the clean, authoritative finish of a “poem” as polished object. In that light, the line becomes an ars poetica for process over product. He’s chasing what the crowd has, but he’s wary of how crowds get it - by smoothing out doubt, complexity, and the embarrassing pause. The “hard-won” part is key: keeping uncertainty intact is difficult in a culture that rewards instant takes.
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"I was trying to find out what it was that everybody else understood without giving up my stubborn and hard-won lack of understanding." FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-was-trying-to-find-out-what-it-was-that-64998/. Accessed 6 Feb. 2026.






