"I went to the bathroom and threw some water on my face, combed my hair. If I could only comb that face, I thought, but I can't"
About this Quote
The intent isn’t vanity, it’s fatalism. “Combed my hair” suggests control, presentation, the tiny lie of improvement. “If I could only comb that face” exposes how shallow those fixes are when the problem is not appearance but identity: the face as the hard evidence of who you are, what you’ve lived through, what you can’t talk your way out of. Bukowski’s narrators are rarely interested in redemption arcs. They’re interested in the humiliations that keep happening even when you try to clean up.
Subtext: self-loathing without melodrama. He doesn’t say “I hated myself”. He lets the thought slip out mid-grooming, like it’s as ordinary as running water. That casualness is the point: the wound is chronic.
Contextually, it’s Bukowski’s signature working-class existentialism, written from the aftertaste of hangovers, low-wage rooms, and the suspicion that reinvention is mostly a privilege. The bathroom mirror becomes a courtroom. You can straighten the hair for the world; the face hands down the verdict.
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| Topic | Mental Health |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Bukowski, Charles. (2026, February 10). I went to the bathroom and threw some water on my face, combed my hair. If I could only comb that face, I thought, but I can't. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-went-to-the-bathroom-and-threw-some-water-on-my-185229/
Chicago Style
Bukowski, Charles. "I went to the bathroom and threw some water on my face, combed my hair. If I could only comb that face, I thought, but I can't." FixQuotes. February 10, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-went-to-the-bathroom-and-threw-some-water-on-my-185229/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I went to the bathroom and threw some water on my face, combed my hair. If I could only comb that face, I thought, but I can't." FixQuotes, 10 Feb. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-went-to-the-bathroom-and-threw-some-water-on-my-185229/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.






