"I wish I had had a great disappointment, a real one"
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The phrasing matters. “I wish I had had” puts the desire safely in the past tense, like she’s handling something dangerous with gloves. “A real one” implies that smaller letdowns don’t count - that she’s surrounded by noise, maybe even by success, but missing the clarifying brutality of one decisive loss. It’s a line you can hear from someone who has been mythologized early, where identity gets built out of projections and roles. If your life is spent being looked at, chosen, cast, discarded, you can end up collecting micro-disappointments that never quite land because they belong to the industry, not to you.
Subtext: she’s hungry for an event that would make her feel authored rather than curated. A “great” disappointment promises scale, narrative, a before-and-after. It’s also a quiet rebuke to glamour itself: the suspicion that a smooth life is emotionally counterfeit. Wanting a real disappointment is, paradoxically, a way of insisting on reality.
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| Topic | Sadness |
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Kinski, Nastassja. (2026, January 16). I wish I had had a great disappointment, a real one. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-wish-i-had-had-a-great-disappointment-a-real-one-82645/
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Kinski, Nastassja. "I wish I had had a great disappointment, a real one." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-wish-i-had-had-a-great-disappointment-a-real-one-82645/.
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"I wish I had had a great disappointment, a real one." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-wish-i-had-had-a-great-disappointment-a-real-one-82645/. Accessed 16 Feb. 2026.








