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Life & Mortality Quote by Charles Bukowski

"If I hadn't been a drunkard, I probably would have committed suicide long ago"

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Bukowski’s bleak joke lands like a barstool confession: alcohol isn’t framed as a vice so much as a crude life-support system. The line works because it refuses the clean moral arc people want from addiction narratives. No redemption, no cautionary tale, just a grim, utilitarian calculus: the bottle as an ugly substitute for the abyss. It’s funny in the way gallows humor is funny - a laugh that’s really a flinch.

The intent is provocation with a purpose. Bukowski dares you to condemn him, then reminds you that condemnation is a luxury for people who haven’t needed a chemical buffer to keep breathing. The subtext isn’t “drinking is good”; it’s “survival is messy, and I’m not interested in your tidy ethics”. He’s also defending his persona - the down-and-out poet who turns degradation into material. By claiming drunkenness prevented suicide, he reframes self-destruction as self-preservation, collapsing the usual categories. That twist is the point.

Context matters: Bukowski built a literary brand on chronic marginality, loneliness, wage labor, and disgust with polite society. Mid-century American masculinity often offered men two sanctioned outlets for pain: silence or the bar. His work turns that cultural script into brutal candor, suggesting that what looks like failure may be an adaptation. The line is less a confession than a challenge: if you want a world with fewer drunks, you might start by asking why so many people need anesthesia just to stay alive.

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Bukowski, Charles. (2026, February 10). If I hadn't been a drunkard, I probably would have committed suicide long ago. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/if-i-hadnt-been-a-drunkard-i-probably-would-have-185255/

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Bukowski, Charles. "If I hadn't been a drunkard, I probably would have committed suicide long ago." FixQuotes. February 10, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/if-i-hadnt-been-a-drunkard-i-probably-would-have-185255/.

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"If I hadn't been a drunkard, I probably would have committed suicide long ago." FixQuotes, 10 Feb. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/if-i-hadnt-been-a-drunkard-i-probably-would-have-185255/. Accessed 13 Feb. 2026.

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Charles Bukowski

Charles Bukowski (August 16, 1920 - March 9, 1994) was a Poet from USA.

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