"If I were sufficiently romantic, I suppose I'd have killed myself long ago just to make people talk about me. I haven't even got the conviction to make a successful drunkard"
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The subtext is both contempt and fatigue. He imagines killing himself “just to make people talk,” implying he knows exactly how gossip, reputation, and art-world canonization function. The line performs a kind of moral shrug: even the extreme gesture feels less like tragedy than like marketing. That’s what makes it sting. He isn’t romantic enough to believe in grand exits, and he isn’t narcissistic enough to cash in on them.
Then comes the kicker: “I haven’t even got the conviction to make a successful drunkard.” “Conviction” is a bleakly funny word here, as if alcoholism were an artistic discipline requiring follow-through. He skewers another stock pose of literary masculinity - the hard-drinking genius - and finds himself lacking even that credential. In Dos Passos’s world, the self is measured against ready-made archetypes and comes up short.
Context matters: Dos Passos lived through world war, political disillusionment, and the churn of American modernity he chronicled so vividly. The voice sounds like a man watching public myths eat private life, and refusing, almost spitefully, to provide the tidy spectacle those myths demand.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Passos, John Dos. (2026, February 18). If I were sufficiently romantic, I suppose I'd have killed myself long ago just to make people talk about me. I haven't even got the conviction to make a successful drunkard. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/if-i-were-sufficiently-romantic-i-suppose-id-have-86604/
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Passos, John Dos. "If I were sufficiently romantic, I suppose I'd have killed myself long ago just to make people talk about me. I haven't even got the conviction to make a successful drunkard." FixQuotes. February 18, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/if-i-were-sufficiently-romantic-i-suppose-id-have-86604/.
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"If I were sufficiently romantic, I suppose I'd have killed myself long ago just to make people talk about me. I haven't even got the conviction to make a successful drunkard." FixQuotes, 18 Feb. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/if-i-were-sufficiently-romantic-i-suppose-id-have-86604/. Accessed 19 Feb. 2026.






