"If you don't know how to hold a board, you're going to look phony. That's was the biggest pressure for me was to have that respect and to look up to that"
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Authenticity here isn’t a lofty moral, it’s a grip: the small, physical competence that separates someone who belongs from someone performing belonging. Robinson’s “hold a board” sounds like a throwaway detail, but it’s doing heavy cultural work. Boards are props in the most literal sense; if you can’t handle the prop, the audience sees the costume. That’s the pressure he’s naming: not the fear of failure, but the fear of being read as an interloper.
The line also sketches a whole social economy of respect. “Phony” isn’t just personal embarrassment; it’s social exile. In subcultures built around skill (skate, surf, DIY scenes, even newsroom craft), respect is granted less by self-declaration than by fluency in unspoken rules. You don’t earn credibility by insisting you deserve it; you earn it by moving correctly through the space, by knowing what not to fake.
Then he slips into a revealing tangle: “to have that respect and to look up to that.” He’s not only seeking approval from insiders; he’s acknowledging he admires the standard that could reject him. That’s the emotional core: aspiration paired with insecurity, reverence mixed with dread. As a writer, Robinson is also quietly talking about authorship itself: the board becomes craft. If you don’t know how to hold the tools of a world you’re depicting, your prose reads like cosplay. The intent is protective and aspirational at once: don’t counterfeit; learn the posture, earn the gaze.
The line also sketches a whole social economy of respect. “Phony” isn’t just personal embarrassment; it’s social exile. In subcultures built around skill (skate, surf, DIY scenes, even newsroom craft), respect is granted less by self-declaration than by fluency in unspoken rules. You don’t earn credibility by insisting you deserve it; you earn it by moving correctly through the space, by knowing what not to fake.
Then he slips into a revealing tangle: “to have that respect and to look up to that.” He’s not only seeking approval from insiders; he’s acknowledging he admires the standard that could reject him. That’s the emotional core: aspiration paired with insecurity, reverence mixed with dread. As a writer, Robinson is also quietly talking about authorship itself: the board becomes craft. If you don’t know how to hold the tools of a world you’re depicting, your prose reads like cosplay. The intent is protective and aspirational at once: don’t counterfeit; learn the posture, earn the gaze.
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| Topic | Training & Practice |
|---|---|
| Source | Help us find the source |
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