"I'm a very loyal person and I allowed myself to be defined as somebody who was doing Gordon's bidding. I should have fought back harder to define myself at an earlier stage"
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The rhetoric is carefully double-edged. “I’m a very loyal person” is an appeal for moral credit before the self-critique arrives; it asks the listener to treat the flaw as an excess of character rather than a lack of spine. Then comes the central admission: he “allowed” himself to be defined. That verb shifts responsibility away from Brown’s dominance and toward Balls’ own strategic passivity. It’s less betrayal than belated self-authorship.
The subtext is about the modern political economy of visibility. Advisers and lieutenants do the hard work, but the cost is often permanent second billing. Balls is acknowledging the brutal truth that competence without narrative reads as dependency. “I should have fought back harder” hints at internal battles - with a leader, with a party culture that punishes freelancing, with a media ecosystem that loves archetypes. It’s regret, yes, but also a warning: if you don’t draw your own outline early, someone else will.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Balls, Ed. (2026, January 17). I'm a very loyal person and I allowed myself to be defined as somebody who was doing Gordon's bidding. I should have fought back harder to define myself at an earlier stage. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/im-a-very-loyal-person-and-i-allowed-myself-to-be-50314/
Chicago Style
Balls, Ed. "I'm a very loyal person and I allowed myself to be defined as somebody who was doing Gordon's bidding. I should have fought back harder to define myself at an earlier stage." FixQuotes. January 17, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/im-a-very-loyal-person-and-i-allowed-myself-to-be-50314/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"I'm a very loyal person and I allowed myself to be defined as somebody who was doing Gordon's bidding. I should have fought back harder to define myself at an earlier stage." FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/im-a-very-loyal-person-and-i-allowed-myself-to-be-50314/. Accessed 21 Feb. 2026.








