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Life & Mortality Quote by Derek Jarman

"I'm not afraid of death but I am afraid of dying"

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Jarman’s line slices the metaphysical from the physical with the cold precision of someone who has had to rehearse the difference. “Death” is the abstract noun people romanticize or philosophize about; “dying” is the verb, the lived process, where the body becomes a timeline and fear gets practical. The sentence works because it refuses the heroic pose. It’s not bravado. It’s triage: he can make peace with an ending, but not with the degradation, pain, and loss of autonomy that may lead there.

The subtext is a director’s subtext: an insistence on what the camera can actually show. Death is offscreen, a cut to black. Dying is the drawn-out scene, the bad lighting, the unwanted close-ups. Jarman, whose late work confronted AIDS-era Britain with a mix of lyricism and anger, understood how a society can turn “death” into morality play while abandoning people in the messier, stigmatized middle. Saying he isn’t afraid of death subtly rejects the era’s punitive narrative; saying he fears dying indicts the institutions that make dying harder than it needs to be.

There’s also an artist’s discipline here. Jarman isn’t bargaining with fate; he’s naming the real antagonist: time under pressure. In one clean contrast, he shifts the conversation from existential drama to care, dignity, and the politics of whose suffering gets seen, softened, or ignored.

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APA Style (7th ed.)
Jarman, Derek. (2026, January 27). I'm not afraid of death but I am afraid of dying. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/im-not-afraid-of-death-but-i-am-afraid-of-dying-100098/

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Jarman, Derek. "I'm not afraid of death but I am afraid of dying." FixQuotes. January 27, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/im-not-afraid-of-death-but-i-am-afraid-of-dying-100098/.

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"I'm not afraid of death but I am afraid of dying." FixQuotes, 27 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/im-not-afraid-of-death-but-i-am-afraid-of-dying-100098/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.

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Derek Jarman (January 31, 1942 - February 19, 1994) was a Director from United Kingdom.

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