"I'm not fit company for man or beast"
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"I'm not fit company for man or beast" lands like a half-laugh caught in the throat: a self-indictment delivered with show-biz timing. Strayhorn, a composer whose elegance often arrived under someone else's marquee, compresses a whole psychology of backstage isolation into an almost vaudevillian phrase. The line’s sting comes from its scope. He doesn’t just disqualify himself from polite society; he’s unqualified even for the uncomplicated companionship of animals. It’s humor as a defense mechanism, but also as a way of making pain legible without asking for pity.
The intent feels less like confession than preemptive strike. By declaring himself unfit, Strayhorn controls the narrative before anyone else can. That matters for a Black gay artist working in mid-century America and in the orbit of Duke Ellington: proximity to brilliance, constant scrutiny, limited credit, and a life lived with strategic discretion. The subtext is exhaustion with performance beyond the bandstand - the ceaseless calibration of voice, desire, and demeanor to stay safe, employed, and respected.
What makes it work is its clever inversion of the usual boast. In a culture that rewards confidence, Strayhorn offers a polished self-sabotage that reads as both mask and truth. It’s a line that sounds tossed off, but it carries the ache of someone who knows how to write beauty for rooms he may not feel allowed to fully inhabit.
The intent feels less like confession than preemptive strike. By declaring himself unfit, Strayhorn controls the narrative before anyone else can. That matters for a Black gay artist working in mid-century America and in the orbit of Duke Ellington: proximity to brilliance, constant scrutiny, limited credit, and a life lived with strategic discretion. The subtext is exhaustion with performance beyond the bandstand - the ceaseless calibration of voice, desire, and demeanor to stay safe, employed, and respected.
What makes it work is its clever inversion of the usual boast. In a culture that rewards confidence, Strayhorn offers a polished self-sabotage that reads as both mask and truth. It’s a line that sounds tossed off, but it carries the ache of someone who knows how to write beauty for rooms he may not feel allowed to fully inhabit.
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| Topic | Loneliness |
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| Source | Help us find the source |
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