"In one way, I suppose, I have been 'in denial' for some time, knowingly burning the candle at both ends and finding that it often gives a lovely light"
About this Quote
Hitchens takes a phrase from the language of recovery and self-help - “in denial” - and turns it into a weaponized confession. The scare quotes do double duty: they acknowledge the cliché while refusing its moral script. Denial, in the therapeutic register, is a failure to face reality; for Hitchens it’s also a chosen posture, a cultivated blindness that keeps the engine running. “Knowingly” matters: he isn’t pleading ignorance or asking absolution. He’s insisting on agency, even in self-destruction.
The second half is pure Hitchensian seduction. “Burning the candle at both ends” is ordinarily a warning, a proverb meant to end the argument. He flips it with the sly, almost decadent payoff: the candle “often gives a lovely light.” That “often” is the tell. Not always. Not safely. Just enough of the time to make the bargain feel rational, even aesthetic. He smuggles pleasure and productivity into what’s supposed to be cautionary, reframing excess as illumination.
Context sharpens the edge: late in life, amid illness, Hitchens wrote and spoke with brutal candor about mortality, addiction, and will. The line reads like a preemptive rebuttal to the neat narratives people impose on a public intellectual’s habits: the redemptive arc, the lesson, the repentance. Instead, he offers something colder and more honest: a life lived at full voltage, aware of its costs, unwilling to pretend the costs weren’t sometimes the point.
The second half is pure Hitchensian seduction. “Burning the candle at both ends” is ordinarily a warning, a proverb meant to end the argument. He flips it with the sly, almost decadent payoff: the candle “often gives a lovely light.” That “often” is the tell. Not always. Not safely. Just enough of the time to make the bargain feel rational, even aesthetic. He smuggles pleasure and productivity into what’s supposed to be cautionary, reframing excess as illumination.
Context sharpens the edge: late in life, amid illness, Hitchens wrote and spoke with brutal candor about mortality, addiction, and will. The line reads like a preemptive rebuttal to the neat narratives people impose on a public intellectual’s habits: the redemptive arc, the lesson, the repentance. Instead, he offers something colder and more honest: a life lived at full voltage, aware of its costs, unwilling to pretend the costs weren’t sometimes the point.
Quote Details
| Topic | Live in the Moment |
|---|---|
| Source | Help us find the source |
More Quotes by Christopher
Add to List








