"It was such a paradox for me that the only thing I know how to do is act, but that the first thing I abandoned while writing were the characters"
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The subtext is vulnerability disguised as practicality. Actors are taught to treat character as sacred infrastructure: objectives, backstory, the invisible logic that makes behavior legible. Writing, especially early drafts, often rewards the opposite instinct: chasing momentum, plot mechanics, tone, a “what happens next” engine. Howard’s admission suggests a writer’s panic response: when the page is blank, character can feel like a luxury item, while structure looks like survival. Or more pointedly: she’s confronting how acting lets you inhabit a single perspective, while writing forces you to manage an entire ecosystem.
Context matters here because Howard’s career sits inside a Hollywood apparatus that frequently separates performance from authorship. When actors write or direct, they’re expected to prove legitimacy fast, to deliver a “movie” before they indulge in interiority. Her line quietly critiques that pressure. It also hints at a deeper fear: if she can’t start with character, is she still herself as an artist? The paradox works because it’s a real creative betrayal, and she’s honest enough to name it.
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Howard, Bryce Dallas. (2026, January 16). It was such a paradox for me that the only thing I know how to do is act, but that the first thing I abandoned while writing were the characters. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/it-was-such-a-paradox-for-me-that-the-only-thing-109569/
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Howard, Bryce Dallas. "It was such a paradox for me that the only thing I know how to do is act, but that the first thing I abandoned while writing were the characters." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/it-was-such-a-paradox-for-me-that-the-only-thing-109569/.
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"It was such a paradox for me that the only thing I know how to do is act, but that the first thing I abandoned while writing were the characters." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/it-was-such-a-paradox-for-me-that-the-only-thing-109569/. Accessed 13 Feb. 2026.



