"Nine years after I had my own accident, I find that in trying to go back to doing those things that I used to do just doesn't fit. Everything seems to just fall apart. I don't know why but I think it is because I am this new creature"
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The emotional core is in the failure of willpower. He’s “trying,” and still “everything seems to just fall apart.” That’s not melodrama; it’s the disorienting mismatch between intention and capacity that disability, trauma, and major life disruptions can produce long after the headline moment fades. Nine years later is the kicker. It tells you this isn’t early shock or temporary limitation; it’s the long tail, the part that doesn’t make for inspiring TV.
Calling himself “this new creature” is both self-protection and self-diagnosis. It sidesteps tidy language like “survivor” or “changed man” and reaches for something stranger, almost theatrical - fitting for an actor whose instrument is his body. The subtext: the industry, friends, even your own memory keep auditioning you for your old role. He’s admitting that the casting is wrong. The intent isn’t to invite pity; it’s to claim a new identity without apology, even if he can’t fully explain it yet. That “I don’t know why” is the most honest part: transformation often arrives before meaning does.
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| Topic | Reinvention |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Vereen, Ben. (2026, January 16). Nine years after I had my own accident, I find that in trying to go back to doing those things that I used to do just doesn't fit. Everything seems to just fall apart. I don't know why but I think it is because I am this new creature. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/nine-years-after-i-had-my-own-accident-i-find-101030/
Chicago Style
Vereen, Ben. "Nine years after I had my own accident, I find that in trying to go back to doing those things that I used to do just doesn't fit. Everything seems to just fall apart. I don't know why but I think it is because I am this new creature." FixQuotes. January 16, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/nine-years-after-i-had-my-own-accident-i-find-101030/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"Nine years after I had my own accident, I find that in trying to go back to doing those things that I used to do just doesn't fit. Everything seems to just fall apart. I don't know why but I think it is because I am this new creature." FixQuotes, 16 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/nine-years-after-i-had-my-own-accident-i-find-101030/. Accessed 9 Feb. 2026.







